The Good Part by Sophie Cousens

Author:Sophie Cousens [Cousens, Sophie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781529393880
Published: 2023-10-04T18:30:00+00:00

It’s a strange experience, sleeping with someone who knows my body, someone who knows what I like – who knows things I didn’t even know that I liked. I’m drunk enough not to care that my parents are in the house with us, and at one point Sam has to cover my mouth and say, ‘Lucy, shhhh,’ in this stern voice, which honestly, only turns me on more.

Afterwards, I sit astride him in a heady daze, running a finger down his broad, firm chest. ‘Is that how we usually do it?’ I ask.

‘Not usually that loudly,’ he says, putting a hand on either side of my hips. I rock my pelvis against him, unable to stop smiling. ‘What’s got into you?’ he asks, staring up at me and slowly shaking his head.

‘I woke up and found I was married to a complete hotty.’

He flips me over so I’m lying on my back and he’s on top of me, which makes me squeal with laughter.

‘Maybe there are some advantages to you waking up and thinking you’re twenty-six again, Mrs Rutherford,’ he murmurs in my ear.

Twenty minutes later, as I’m lying in our big, beautiful bed, with Sam’s strong arms wrapped around me, I feel an overwhelming sense of contentment. Sure, it’s not ideal that I’ve missed sixteen years of my life, but this situation certainly has its advantages. I’ll never need to have bad sex ever again or wear cheap footwear that dissolves in the rain. The shower pressure in the bathroom is to die for. Zoya would scream if she saw the size of it. Zoya. All my contentment dissolves, like a hand gently shredding a spiderweb. How could I be happy when she is not here? How could anything in my life be good when she is not there to share it? I wonder if Future Me felt this way too, or if she had learnt to live with this gaping absence.

Sam strokes my hand, and I try to think of something else.

‘Did you find your rings?’ he asks.

‘Oh yes, I’m keeping them safe in there,’ I say, pointing to the drawer.

He leans across me to open it, feels for the rings, then holds up my hand and gently threads them onto my ring finger. ‘Safest place for them,’ he says, turning his head to kiss my neck. I close my hand, trying not to mind. My eye darts to the dressing table, where there’s a framed photo of Felix and Amy sitting on a picnic blanket in a woodland glade. I think back to the story Sam told me about playing with his sisters in the wood. There’s more than a six-year age gap between Felix and Amy, so I don’t expect they’ll ever be close in that way.

‘Why did we wait so long to have a second baby?’ I ask Sam, and his hand stops stroking mine. ‘Six years feels like a long gap.’

Sam’s whole body goes rigid.

‘Oh, love,’ he says, and his voice is full of so much unexpected emotion it makes me sit up in bed.

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